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Musician's Mental Health: Panelists Discuss the stress of musicianship

Published: 21 February 2017

Written by Madison Duenkler for the McGill Daily (Feb 20, 2017)
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On Monday, February 13, McGill students and members of Montrealā€™s music community gathered at the Wirth Music building for a panel discussion, entitled ā€œMusicianā€™s Health Throughout a Performing Career.ā€

Claire Motyer, the founder of the Schulich Musicianā€™s Health Committee, which organized the event, started the discussion by saying, ā€œI donā€™t think you can really separate emotional, physical, and mental health from each other. Weā€™re really just trying to get this conversation started, really just wanting to open up about musicianā€™s health [and] bring some faculty, some alumni, and some current students [together] to share their stories so more people open up and feel comfortable talking about their stories.ā€

Speaking with The Daily, Motyer said, ā€œI really want students, and faculty as well, just to feel more comfortable talking about these issues, creating a dialogue between all of us as a community, and creating more of a sense of a community around these topics.ā€

Motyer, a U3 Music student and violinist at McGill, has experienced injury herself. ā€œItā€™s only now really that Iā€™m realizing this is what I want to do, bring awareness to these issues, and to musiciansā€™ health. At first I found it hard to talk about, but now I feel much better being open about it.ā€

Panelists included Yolanda Bruno, a violinist, Isabelle Cossette, Director at the Centre for Interdisciplinary Research in Music, Media, and Technology, trumpet professor Russell Devuyst, and RenƩe Yoxon, a jazz vocalist. To start the discussion, each of the panelists introduced themselves.

ā€œIā€™m originally from Ottawa, and Iā€™m a violinist,ā€ said Bruno. ā€œIĆŪĢŅ“«Ć½appl focus on the angle of injury: Iā€™ve had an injury twice before. The first time, I was still young so I brushed over it quite quickly. The second time was quite traumatic. The second time I had to take a significant amount of time off, maybe three to four months off, which felt like an eternity.ā€

ā€œI had to cancel many concerts and I had to tell people that I was injured and then the word got out and people knew and that was really scary because as soon as one person knew, then more people knew,ā€ she continued.

Speaking about her recovery process, Bruno explained that she was uncertain how to move forward because she ā€œreceived a lot of information from many different people.ā€

ā€œIt took a long time for me to find my route to recovery,ā€ she said, ā€œwhich ended up being one-on-one sessions with a Hatha yoga instructor, and acupuncture after doing chiropracting, and lots of running and swimming and lots of different things.ā€

Another panelist, Isabelle Cossette, the director of the Centre for Interdisciplinary Research in Music Media and Technology (CIRMMT), was trained as a flute player and got her doctorate in music performance, but decided ultimately to turn to a career in research, focusing on the respiratory mechanics of musicians. Throughout the discussion, she spoke about the importance of accepting and embracing change.

ā€œIā€™m not here to necessarily discuss a specific injury that I had while I was performing,ā€ Cossette said. ā€œI can make a lot of parallels; I had to go through depressions and that is very similar to someone who gets injured and canā€™t play. You find ways to recover. Changes, in fact, can be seen as exciting.ā€

Devuyst, who played for the Montreal Symphony for twenty-four years, focused on injury in terms of the effects it can have not only on a musicianā€™s career, but also on their self-confidence.

ā€œIn relation to performance injuries, Iā€™ve been injured three times actually,ā€ he explained. ā€œI never thought that I would, you know, you donā€™t think of being injured when youā€™re eighteen years, you think youā€™re infallible [ā€¦] you just go crazy, and you just play.ā€

The first injury Devuyst experienced was partial facial paralysis caused by Ramsay Hunt Syndrome.

ā€œI couldnā€™t play,ā€ he said. ā€œIt was like going to the dentist and getting novocaine and then trying to play. Thatā€™s the way I felt for a couple of months.ā€

ā€œComing back from that was a very arduous thing,ā€ he elaborated, ā€œbecause I had two kids, three and five years old, so I just figured okay, my lifeā€™s over. What am I going to do now?ā€

Outlining the difficulties of recovery, and his mental health during this time, Devuyst explained how he used new hobbies as a coping mechanism.

ā€œInstead of getting all worried, I just started woodworking,ā€ he said. ā€œI got this book on how to make toys [ā€¦] I made them for my kids and I said, ā€˜Hey, this is kind of fun.ā€™ It took my mind of it.ā€

Devuyst also spoke about his second accident. ā€œThe second accident I had, I was riding my bike and [ā€¦] I was carrying a bag from the supermarket and the bag got caught in the front wheel and I went over the front handlebars. Even though I had a helmet on, it didnā€™t help because I smashed my teeth.ā€

ā€œI did everything that a trumpet playerā€™s not supposed to do and broke my front teeth,ā€ he continued. ā€œMy teeth were broken, my lips were bleeding like crazy, I was looking at the cement and I saw chips of my teeth, so I took my teeth, put them in my pocket, and I went to the dentist and said, ā€˜glue them back,ā€™ and theyā€™re still there actually.ā€

Devuyst stressed the importance of accepting an injury and pacing your recovery. ā€œThe difficulty in coming back after an injury is that your brain knows where you used to be, but your body doesnā€™t respond to that, so you can really hurt yourself if you try to get yourself back into the level [musically] that you were. You have to accept where you are and just start from there and donā€™t expect anythingā€

Yoxon was the last panelist to introduce themselves. ā€œIā€™m a jazz vocalist. Iā€™m studying currently in the undergraduate program here at McGill and I have chronic pain. Iā€™ve been dealing with chronic pain for about ten years; Iā€™m almost thirty now and I started experiencing chronic pain symptoms when I was in my late teens and then I started identifying as someone with chronic pain when I was like twenty, twenty-one years old. [ā€¦] For me, my pain threshold is much, much lower, so Iā€™m just in pain all the time, even when thereā€™s no injury.ā€

Yoxon continued, ā€œYour pain system is there to prevent injury, so you feel pain before you become injured, which is why you [are] supposed to stop playing [then]. However, in my case, Iā€™m feeling pain all the time and I actually have to play through it a little bit. I would just be stopping all the time if I didnā€™t. So what Iā€™m [ā€¦] dealing with is how to adapt singing for me, even though Iā€™m going to be injured forever.ā€

In an interview with The Daily, Yoxon stressed the importance of making music accessible to those with disabilities, by ā€œ[listing] what accessibility features are on their event information.ā€

They also highlighted the benefits of live broadcasting. ā€œI think live broadcasting can not only bring shows to disabled people, [ā€¦] live broadcastings brings shows to people who have lower incomes, people who need childcare. Lots of people donā€™t have the privilege of going out.ā€

NoĆ©mie Chemali, an attendee and music student at McGill, has experienced both the physical and mental stress that the panelists discussed. ā€œWhen I first came to McGill, I was a violin student and there was definitely a huge leap of expectations from what I was used to. I come from a small town in the U.S. and coming here, itā€™s a bigger city. I felt like a very small fish in a big pond basically.ā€

ā€œIā€™m glad we have more dialogue going on about musicianā€™s health, definitely to help people from struggling, the way I did, especially my first two years when I didnā€™t have the courage to stand up and say Iā€™m in pain, Iā€™m not going to play today,ā€ Chemali added.

The rest of the discussion focused mainly on methods of coping with the physical and emotional stresses of musicianship. The panelists all stressed focusing on oneā€™s own progress as opposed to competition.

Yoxon said, ā€œI feel like in order to succeed at McGill, you need to be like an athlete, and we are, weā€™re athletes, but I think that thereā€™s something to be gained by learning music and not approaching it from the point of athleticism.ā€

Later in the discussion, they stated, ā€œWe do have a lot of people who are playing from a place of fear. [ā€¦] It helps your mental health to not worry about what other people are thinking.ā€

Devuyst, similarly, expressed the importance of practicing to improve, not to avoid making mistakes. He also stressed the importance of ā€œknowing your body, knowing what you can do with your body, how far you can go.ā€

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